Tuesday, November 17, 2009

MS? Who cares!

MS? Pssssh. MS is just letters for me today. They could mean anything. My Song. Many Saved. My Sweet. Pick one! Granted, I lost tuesday again. I went to bed after heroes Monday night at 9pm and I just woke up. My time, it is now 1:20am wed morning... BAI BAI Tuesday! In my defence I did not sleep at all sunday night and tried to stay up for Heroes (very important!!)

So today I'm thinking about the future. It's not bleak. I've been working on my art recently. It's making me feel so much better about my self. I have skills. I have skills other people don't have. Sure I also have MS but who cares? Not me today. ^_^ I've been planning Christmas presents for the family. I have a list of art projects set that have to be done for Christmas. Busy busy!

I also have a goal. The Las Vegas Star Trek convention. My mum and I are going to start saving to go. I'm going for the gold admission package so it's going to be expensive. But if I'm going to do something once in a life-time, I'm going to go all out for it. Better to save an extra year then to be disappointed I couldn't make all the fun stuff becuase I wasn't patient!

Having a goal that is so huge is uplifting. I feel it is totally attainable. And day dreaming about the out come is nice lol. But knowing I can attain something this grand helps me realize I can attain all the normal stuff I want to. Screw MS!!!! I'm going to go to college, get my job and drive a damn car.

So today I say UP YOURS MS!

Friday, November 13, 2009

Planning the future.

How does a person with MS plan for the future? When I was a teenager, I wanted to be an archeaologist. But when I can barely get the energy to walk to the mailbox or clean my house, that dream starts to look a little unrealistic. Then I thought of being a historian or a history teacher. But once again, my fatigue and symptoms interfered with schooling. I did not meet the dead line for my college fund and now looking at years of grueling study (expensive study) is also becoming unrealistic.

So my goal now is to work with animals. No I don't want to be a vet. I'm thinking of pet grooming. I love animals, I've got 5 cats and had a dog. He was 19 (beagle) and had to be put down this summer finally. But I really enjoy the grooming process. Brushing my maine coon is very soothing. I also had the chance to groom a pomeranian recently who was very matted and her nails were longer then my cats. Working the mats out of her, bathing and clipping was certainly a process. But after it was all over, she could walk easier, and she wasn't in as much pain from matting, or fleas. It was nice. I've looked up some courses and could deffinatly do it.

Problem. I live at least 30 minutes away from the city where the school is. I do have a learners permit to learn to drive, but no one to teach me or let me use their vehicle. Also, driving with MS? Scary thought. My Dad used to lose his vision when he was driving sometimes. It was terrifying. What if something similar happens to me? I could hurt someone. Or worse.

I want to move forward with my life. Tell me how you have overcome MS related difficulties involving work and school, and driving.